Bye Bye scale...

So...  I couldn't even take my own advice from my last post.  I couldn't just follow the plan and let things take its course and just trust in the process.  I put up a good front on the outside, but inside, I was freaking out.  I don't even know why. 

I am new to this whole process.  I let the thought of a certain 'stage weight' get to me and assumed things that I shouldn't have.  My instructions were clear...  eat the food per plan, get your workouts in, add cardio 4x a week.  Easy enough, right?  Why I feel compelled to step on the scale EVERY SINGLE MORNING I don't know.  I am sure I am not alone.

My trainer made some posts on Facebook about his frustrations with prep clients weighing in too frequently and obsessing over whether or not they had lost any weight.  BAM!  I felt completely exposed...  I was doing just that.  I wasn't sure what was expected of me at this phase of things...  am I supposed to be losing?  I have even amazed myself at how well I am following the meal plan and I haven't missed a workout since the first of November.  I take my 2 rest days a week and work hard in the gym on weight training days.  I have only had cardio added since last week, but I get those in and spread out during the week.  I weigh/measure all my food and if it isn't on the plan, I don't eat it.  I am doing everything that I can...  So, why couldn't I follow the simple instruction of weighing only on Friday?  I know better then to expect immediate results.  It turns out that his posts weren't even about me specifically, but it hit so close to home, I figured I better fess up, face the music and move forward.  I would rather move past this now then closer to the contest date.

So, what now?  I am having my husband take the scale away.  My trainer will be taking pictures to check progress when needed.  Keep doing what I am doing, follow the plan.  Trust in the process and quit sabotaging myself.  I can do this!

Oh, and it is going to be a banner week!  My next worst fear of all of this...  Being able to do the posing and walking!  Posing practice starts this Saturday for clients that compete in March/April.  It isn't mandatory for me yet, but I figure I need all the lessons and practice that I can get.  I have no idea what I am doing in that department, that is for sure.  I don't know why I am so freaked out about it, but I am kind of a nervous wreck.  I am hoping by getting this first session in (and getting past how great some of these girls will look, because they are close to their show date) I can calm down a bit and walk away with some knowledge so that I can practice on my own as well.  I have added it to my calander and plan to be there every week, unless Trinity has a dance competition.  I need to get this down and feel comfortable with my own body.  This is so hard for me...  but I can't let it get the best of me.  I can do this!

Let's hope this little reality check/wake up call hits home this time.  Anyone else want to join me in ditching the scale??? :)